Early in the morning, the hussle....to go to work.
the nervousness..
the uneasiness
don't know what to do....
I hate those feelings..
I should feel--
energised
excited
happy
positive and creative.
sukacita didalam hati kita memang harus di jaga bener2.
Kalau nggak, memang semuanya bisa hilang dengan cepatnya dan
apa yang di dalam hati kita bisa membuat kita tidak bisa hidup secara maksimal.
Aku nggak mengerti kenapa those feeling bisa tiba2 datang dan pergi.
Hidup jadi mengerikan karena pikiran kita sulit sekali untuk di kontrol.
kadang aku juga bingung... seharusnya>< aku happy and satisfied.
dengan pekerjaan, financial, teman2, family, everything seems good and fulfilling.
tetapi ada suatu pikiran yang membuat aku nggak ada sukacita itu untuk membuat aku
happy and satisfied.I am searching high and low for the answer and itu ada karena aku merasa di tekan dan tertekan dengan perkerjaan ku. secara nggak langsung dan perlahan lahan semuanya menumpuk. Aku selalu menahan ketidakenakan ku terhadap bos ku dan hal2 kecil yang lain. mungkin itu berangsur udah lumayan lama soalnya aku sudah setaun kerja disini dan aku biarkan saja. Itu membuat aku secara tidak langsung stress dan terikat><. Walaupun pekerjaan yang aku lakuiin itu tidak seberat dan sesulit itu. I just felt this the first time in my whole life. The hardship of life..
I just believe I can perform better than this! maybe in a different environment. Selalu berpikir seandainya begini dan begitu. Tetapi the truth is that I may not know.hanya satu hal aja yang pasti, Aku tahu kalo di depan ku ada rencana yang indah yg Tuhan sediakan buatku. Tuhan nggak pernah ninggalin aku dan itu sungguh terbukti. walau kadang aku nggak seutuhnya kokoh di dalam imanku dan doubt about what will be my future. The future will be there if I do well today. It think that is the way I should think right now.
Jadisekarang... Aku harus mempunyai satu goal yang tentu di dalam hidup.
nggak mau lagi aku jalan sendirian di dalam kebingungan. rasa nggak enak yang udah lama lama ini harus diperbaharui setiap hari dan aku percaya one day I can be as happy and cheerful as before.
lizzaaaaa
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
a little something about gender><
Hehehe..
Today we celebrated mel's 21st Bday at cineleisure>>>
ck ck ck. kita memang hebat hebohnya! hahahaha happy day deh..
nyanyi ga karu2an.. melegakan stress.
Ini ceritanya setelahnya aku pulang dari karaokean.
Aku pulang sendiri naik bis... hehehe...
dan pas aku duduk, aku melihat 2 orang cowo^^ good looking!
very well groomed, cukur alis, rambut tertata rapi, bajunya juga so nice, cool, keren.
hehe.. just 2 really nice looking guys.
They are pretty interesting...
The both of them have the same nike bag, or so I observed.
As I have nothing to do, observing them made me realise something deeper..
hahaha....
As a jeweller point of view.. hee.. I saw that on their right hand, they have this bangle,black in colour, simple design..might be made from rubber or even wood. The both of them were wearing it.couple bangle yah???
Then I look at their^ neck, nothing there. hahaha..
After that, Isaw their ear. waaa! He has a * bling on the right ear.The other guy too, has a stud, smaller one on the middle plus two black studs. If you don't look carefully.. you might think that it is a mole! hahaha..interesting jewellery nih!
Jewel in disguise.
Then I see his right ear.. they have this small black dot, mole looking, as it was really tiny right in the middle of the ear,at the bone, nearest to the face. aku kiraiin andeng2.. lalu aku liat cowo satunya,dia juga ada sama..hitam2 at the same exact spot, I was astonished kuaget.. hahahaha.. they even pierce at the same place.....! mereka Guys romantis!now.. jewellery really mean something.>< nice nice.... It is such a waste that such good looking guys love another guy.. heeee.kok ya bisaa..
At the same time... in the bus, I look on my left,.. I saw!!!!! a couple., thought a girl and a guy,then I realisedd duaduanya cewe!!!!!!!! what has happened with this world..zzzzzzz
toengggg udah deh.. mereka mesraaaa hmmmm ga pengen nglanjutin kalo yg ini..
hahaha..
anyway..
that's all for today! something to ponder about our gender. Have we all get confused over it? ...
Today we celebrated mel's 21st Bday at cineleisure>>>
ck ck ck. kita memang hebat hebohnya! hahahaha happy day deh..
nyanyi ga karu2an.. melegakan stress.
Ini ceritanya setelahnya aku pulang dari karaokean.
Aku pulang sendiri naik bis... hehehe...
dan pas aku duduk, aku melihat 2 orang cowo^^ good looking!
very well groomed, cukur alis, rambut tertata rapi, bajunya juga so nice, cool, keren.
hehe.. just 2 really nice looking guys.
They are pretty interesting...
The both of them have the same nike bag, or so I observed.
As I have nothing to do, observing them made me realise something deeper..
As a jeweller point of view.. hee.. I saw that on their right hand, they have this bangle,black in colour, simple design..might be made from rubber or even wood. The both of them were wearing it.couple bangle yah???
Then I look at their^ neck, nothing there. hahaha..
After that, Isaw their ear. waaa! He has a * bling on the right ear.The other guy too, has a stud, smaller one on the middle plus two black studs. If you don't look carefully.. you might think that it is a mole! hahaha..interesting jewellery nih!
Jewel in disguise.
Then I see his right ear.. they have this small black dot, mole looking, as it was really tiny right in the middle of the ear,at the bone, nearest to the face. aku kiraiin andeng2.. lalu aku liat cowo satunya,dia juga ada sama..hitam2 at the same exact spot, I was astonished kuaget.. hahahaha.. they even pierce at the same place.....! mereka Guys romantis!now.. jewellery really mean something.>< nice nice.... It is such a waste that such good looking guys love another guy.. heeee.kok ya bisaa..
At the same time... in the bus, I look on my left,.. I saw!!!!! a couple., thought a girl and a guy,then I realisedd duaduanya cewe!!!!!!!! what has happened with this world..zzzzzzz
toengggg udah deh.. mereka mesraaaa hmmmm ga pengen nglanjutin kalo yg ini..
hahaha..
anyway..
that's all for today! something to ponder about our gender. Have we all get confused over it? ...
Sunday, July 26, 2009
My thoughts after a year of working%$#@
For the past few months, I have not been feeling good and right about life, always thinking so negatively about my own future.
deluded with all the boring,mundane work that I have to do everyday, I don't feel rewarded at all. tired, overwork, so much things to do....and it's like there's no end to it....
semuanya yg negative deh.
Tapi....kenapa dan apa sourcenya?
aku mencari2 jawabannya dan selalu mengeluh all the time...
Tetapi, apakah semuanya itu berguna untuk hari2 didepanku yang harus kulalui?..
It took me weeks even up to now, I still need to really remind myself all the time that my future in front of me is sure and bright.**
I guess I was just blinded for a few months.. and Thinking about it made me irritated as I have wasted my days thinking over things that i shoudn't really think too much right now.... I know God has great plans for me and I am really looking forward to those thngs he has provided for me. Have FAITH><
Well, I think a little differently now . After my crazy days.. I decided to stop all this unecessary unhappiness and unwellness in my mind. I think if I continue on, I might not be able to live anymore. This is a real stress, that I have never felt it in my whole life!. Never!! as my life has always been so happy ,smooth sailing without anything to worry about. God has been sooo good in my life and I still believe that He will not let me be down for so long. Giving me hope still and I am so glad i saw that stray of hope...He never let me face this alone. MAny things now has changed and my style, thinking, hopes, dreams, and my expectation for my future... the nearest future.. is my work. I have to finish it well!!!!!!
After that long I realised... if you want to do big things it comes with big responsibility. Really.. getting promoted and to stay at the top may be the coolest thing that you wanna achieve, but with the responsibility that you need to take.. if only you can see the future, you may think twice about that. Thinking that life can be good and easy. well, it may be the opposite.
However, we have to take all the chances and opportunities to improve ourselves!. The difference about today and tomorrow is that Today you can't do it, but tomorrow, you can! today you do the wrong thing, but tomorrow you do the right things and will not make the same mistake twice. phew.. it's about your knowledge and experience.. unfortunately in my case, there is really sooo many chance to make mistakes. I am so amazeeedddd. Experience really just takes time to get it... the older you become, the more experienced you will be! hahaha,need to sacrifice our life time.
Just with a blink, I already haev a year of experience. cepetttt nyaaaa........and I realised...
jewellery is such a troublesome thing plus the process from designing to making to selling is suchhhh a tedious job!!!! there is just so many tiny things that you need to pay attention to. it's Wow!! heeee... something to interesting,cool, wow,beautiful,but it can also be mean, frustrating, irritating and.....
capeeeekkkk!!! but if I look back now, I have been really through a looott!!
wooooowwwww!!! nothing comparable to my study for 3 years in RDI. I learnt it all in just barely a year. everything and more!! ! hmmmmm.. Now, what should I complain, I am more skilled,with my experience, and a bit of savings. Why am I still unhappy.
Hahaha,... Tomorrow! I still have to face tomorrow and the week which seems like a long way to go ..if you think about it.. it becomes weeeek! wek! hahaha...unbearable pressure! phew...
OKay..tomorrow... let me worry tomorrow.
Think positivly and face it bravely!
Only in my mind that I can't do this.
I am sure that everything is done for my own good and bright future..
Successss!
cheers><
I feel so much better after writing all this.
Phewwww..... Adem ayem.^^
deluded with all the boring,mundane work that I have to do everyday, I don't feel rewarded at all. tired, overwork, so much things to do....and it's like there's no end to it....
semuanya yg negative deh.
Tapi....kenapa dan apa sourcenya?
aku mencari2 jawabannya dan selalu mengeluh all the time...
Tetapi, apakah semuanya itu berguna untuk hari2 didepanku yang harus kulalui?..
It took me weeks even up to now, I still need to really remind myself all the time that my future in front of me is sure and bright.**
I guess I was just blinded for a few months.. and Thinking about it made me irritated as I have wasted my days thinking over things that i shoudn't really think too much right now.... I know God has great plans for me and I am really looking forward to those thngs he has provided for me. Have FAITH><
Well, I think a little differently now . After my crazy days.. I decided to stop all this unecessary unhappiness and unwellness in my mind. I think if I continue on, I might not be able to live anymore. This is a real stress, that I have never felt it in my whole life!. Never!! as my life has always been so happy ,smooth sailing without anything to worry about. God has been sooo good in my life and I still believe that He will not let me be down for so long. Giving me hope still and I am so glad i saw that stray of hope...He never let me face this alone. MAny things now has changed and my style, thinking, hopes, dreams, and my expectation for my future... the nearest future.. is my work. I have to finish it well!!!!!!
After that long I realised... if you want to do big things it comes with big responsibility. Really.. getting promoted and to stay at the top may be the coolest thing that you wanna achieve, but with the responsibility that you need to take.. if only you can see the future, you may think twice about that. Thinking that life can be good and easy. well, it may be the opposite.
However, we have to take all the chances and opportunities to improve ourselves!. The difference about today and tomorrow is that Today you can't do it, but tomorrow, you can! today you do the wrong thing, but tomorrow you do the right things and will not make the same mistake twice. phew.. it's about your knowledge and experience.. unfortunately in my case, there is really sooo many chance to make mistakes. I am so amazeeedddd. Experience really just takes time to get it... the older you become, the more experienced you will be! hahaha,need to sacrifice our life time.
Just with a blink, I already haev a year of experience. cepetttt nyaaaa........and I realised...
jewellery is such a troublesome thing plus the process from designing to making to selling is suchhhh a tedious job!!!! there is just so many tiny things that you need to pay attention to. it's Wow!! heeee... something to interesting,cool, wow,beautiful,but it can also be mean, frustrating, irritating and.....
capeeeekkkk!!! but if I look back now, I have been really through a looott!!
wooooowwwww!!! nothing comparable to my study for 3 years in RDI. I learnt it all in just barely a year. everything and more!! ! hmmmmm.. Now, what should I complain, I am more skilled,with my experience, and a bit of savings. Why am I still unhappy.
Hahaha,... Tomorrow! I still have to face tomorrow and the week which seems like a long way to go ..if you think about it.. it becomes weeeek! wek! hahaha...unbearable pressure! phew...
OKay..tomorrow... let me worry tomorrow.
Think positivly and face it bravely!
Only in my mind that I can't do this.
I am sure that everything is done for my own good and bright future..
Successss!
cheers><
I feel so much better after writing all this.
Phewwww..... Adem ayem.^^
Monday, March 9, 2009
HOngkOng life...
I am back to Singapore...
akhirnyaaaaa....><
It was a fun experience..
eventhough I have to stand for the whole day..
endurance is good sometimes.
have to serve customer in chinese.
It was tough. but I got away with it. hehee...
Exhibition jewellerynya memangk kerennn
orang2nya juga look... good.
haha.. cuci mata.
melihat orang dari different2 negara memang interesting.
Semuanya punya features muka yg beda dan distinctive.
kaya org korea.. aga kotak2,
jepang, mata sipit2 tapi manis...
arab mata2nya gede2.. russia.. cantik bgt!! tinggi putih dan enak diliat de..
nglihat ciptaan Tuhan memang luar biasa. hahaha...
Setiap hari kerjaannya banyaaak banget.
ngeluarin perhiasan,, masukin , mbersihin kaca,
greet people kalo mereka liat2, explain to them kalo tanya,
njagaiin orang. soalnya banyak banget designer yang liat2 dan bos ku very particular dengan hal ini.
Aku di maraiin sekali gara2 aku ga ngliat ada org pake Hpnya ambil photo perhiasan kita.
wah... mana aku bisa prevent itu..
aku juga bingung gimana lagi...
yaa kadang sebagai designer kalo mau mencari idea memang harus professional.
use the photographic memory kalo bisa. hehee...
karena setiap piece yang dibuat adalah hasil dari pemikiran orang.
dan itu tidak gampang untuk dipikirkan.
yang sudah menjadi designer will know what I mean.
It's really irritating for people to literally copy your ideas.
hehehe,
gitu deee Hk is fun.. cool weather..
shopping ini itu dan sempit..
hehe..
I am looking forward to my nex trip ke indo nih><
udah home sick..
CIAO
akhirnyaaaaa....><
It was a fun experience..
eventhough I have to stand for the whole day..
endurance is good sometimes.
have to serve customer in chinese.
It was tough. but I got away with it. hehee...
Exhibition jewellerynya memangk kerennn
orang2nya juga look... good.
haha.. cuci mata.
melihat orang dari different2 negara memang interesting.
Semuanya punya features muka yg beda dan distinctive.
kaya org korea.. aga kotak2,
jepang, mata sipit2 tapi manis...
arab mata2nya gede2.. russia.. cantik bgt!! tinggi putih dan enak diliat de..
nglihat ciptaan Tuhan memang luar biasa. hahaha...
Setiap hari kerjaannya banyaaak banget.
ngeluarin perhiasan,, masukin , mbersihin kaca,
greet people kalo mereka liat2, explain to them kalo tanya,
njagaiin orang. soalnya banyak banget designer yang liat2 dan bos ku very particular dengan hal ini.
Aku di maraiin sekali gara2 aku ga ngliat ada org pake Hpnya ambil photo perhiasan kita.
wah... mana aku bisa prevent itu..
aku juga bingung gimana lagi...
yaa kadang sebagai designer kalo mau mencari idea memang harus professional.
use the photographic memory kalo bisa. hehee...
karena setiap piece yang dibuat adalah hasil dari pemikiran orang.
dan itu tidak gampang untuk dipikirkan.
yang sudah menjadi designer will know what I mean.
It's really irritating for people to literally copy your ideas.
hehehe,
gitu deee Hk is fun.. cool weather..
shopping ini itu dan sempit..
hehe..
I am looking forward to my nex trip ke indo nih><
udah home sick..
CIAO
Monday, March 2, 2009
exciting><
Hahaha...
udah lama ga ngeblog nih!
I was just thinking... I spent some time to write something nice in here before I go to Hong Kong.. to work!!! hehehe...
Yea.. besok akan ke Hong Kong kerja.. the first time in my life I go overseas to work...
Scary!!! with the thought of how much things I have to do.
However, It will be a gd exposure for me. hehehe. meet new people.. see new things.. buy new things too!! hahaha.. HK is shopping paradise!!! hahahaha..
Mengantukkk!!! hehe.. harus bangun pagi besok.
jadimugnkin nyambung lagi minggu depan deh..
GbU!!!
udah lama ga ngeblog nih!
I was just thinking... I spent some time to write something nice in here before I go to Hong Kong.. to work!!! hehehe...
Yea.. besok akan ke Hong Kong kerja.. the first time in my life I go overseas to work...
Scary!!! with the thought of how much things I have to do.
However, It will be a gd exposure for me. hehehe. meet new people.. see new things.. buy new things too!! hahaha.. HK is shopping paradise!!! hahahaha..
Mengantukkk!!! hehe.. harus bangun pagi besok.
jadimugnkin nyambung lagi minggu depan deh..
GbU!!!
Friday, January 30, 2009
Dancing underwater** woW! ANdai aku bisa..
http://www.istitutomarangoni.com/mw/issue_0.htm
Menari di dalam air *
Hanya kagum aja dgn foto2 mereka ini yang sangat anggun yet, full of energy and emotions.
Dance in perfect motion.
They look so elegant and so expressive in their motion
of their body, hair, clothes, expression.
These are the work of 5 graduates from the Fashion DEsign and Fashion Styling programs has this futuristic concept about being alive underwater as their projects.
THey really took a big effort to get their pictures into these perfections.
To have a perfect shot, they took 5 days to complete this with 2200 or more photographs taken. THere are 23 professionals swimmers to be involved in these big project.
It's an amazing achievements!
WELL DONE!!
Creativity memang ga ada batasnya**
small thoughts can lead to achieving big things that the world could never imagine.
^^ Be creative in thinking and you'll wonder.
How much you can make a difference.. hahaha..
Thursday, January 29, 2009
One lovely ring
(Milky Quartz) cloudy whitish ,translucent in colour.
Here is liza's new collection^^
I just can't resist it... the first time I tried it on my finger..
kinclong2 gt rasanya.. hahaha..
well...
Aku menunggu untuk 1 hari untuk mendapatkannya..
karena tidak boleh membeli on impulse....
Jdnya setelah aku lihat, aku mikir2 dan tidak membelinya di pandangan pertama.
hahahaa.. tapi mgkn memang jodoh karena the next day aku balik ,
hehehe rupanya masih ada>< lgsung de jd milikku. yeay!
This ring is crystal clear with white which sparkles under the light..
glossy look seperti es krim!!
material nya cooling when touched and smooootthh><
hahaha.. I love it..
walau aga berat di pakai dan harus hati2 kalau terbentur suaranya keras bgt.
hahaha...
Sunday, January 18, 2009
di tahun 2009
WoW!!!
udah new year!
That's fast.><
Many resolutions for this new year.
untuk lebih dewasa and be more responsible..
so much mistakes I have done and many lesson learnt for the year 2008.
hopefully mistakes will be few this year><
New year always start with a new beginning.
AND..
I hope that new beginning will begin this year.
hehe...
ALways be optimistic!
GBU
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
udah new year!
That's fast.><
Many resolutions for this new year.
untuk lebih dewasa and be more responsible..
so much mistakes I have done and many lesson learnt for the year 2008.
hopefully mistakes will be few this year><
New year always start with a new beginning.
AND..
I hope that new beginning will begin this year.
hehe...
ALways be optimistic!
GBU
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
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