I have never really remembered how to live in Jawa, or in the moon island so might say. Being overseas almost half of my life, I realised that to adjust living in this beautiful place can be so hard.
Life has always been easy and beautiful for me in the past:) but why now after I move back for good, it has crumple and looking ugly?? Well this is why...
First, I have very limited friends here and no activity and living in a totally different lifestyle. This place is like an unknown world to me. It is just so hard to re-start everything. All new once more..I have nothing in here or so I thought at first.In the end, all I ever want is to go back and only looking at the good memories of my past. Always "berangan angan", just dreaming that if I were on the other side of the world, I will be a happier person. ??hmm...
Well, what I never know is that what is in front of me, is as Beautiful... or Even more beautiful. God is still so Good to me that He provided me with almost everything I needed - the nicest friends to hang out with, my family who love me ever so much ,the never ending traveling opportunities:p( this one I plan myself. hehe) and of course to be working with what I always love, jewellery. what more do I want?? oh my...I dunno why I am always complaining.. What is there to complain? haha.. well.. life is never enough for me I guess. never never enough.. just wanna go back so bad..
Now, after almost a year being here.. looking back again, I still do miss the life I used to have. But I also start to realise that it may not be what I really want for my future. Do I really want that. A friend of mine trigger me to re think about what I want in my life.
I used to think that my future will be better if I were there and not here. I think after the discussion...and all the time in here.. I change my mind. haha..
Moving on is always sooo harrd.. the hardest and the to the top! max!
I just know what I really need to do! is just to "move on"
There will be a brighter future for me if I dare to "move on" and not always looking back.. Right:p??
So I have decided that I should instead appreciate living in Indonesia and be thankful that I am with my wonderful family dear friends. Hey there... You know who:p I wanna Thank you for all of your advices. Always make so much sense and soo realistic.!! >< I dunno how you came up with all those phrases, but it sure does change the way I look at things now:) so thankful and super glad to meet, not mentioning being able to 'connect' with people like you... maybe you are God sent to be a messenger . haha,..
Maybe...:) you are sent to make a difference in my life.
Simply said, life will be so wonderful with you appreciating all things there is in your life:)
Life is an exciting,fun,a mysterious journey...and I am so thankful that I have this life of mine.
Never look back:)....
liz
